The True Worth of Amy Winehouse

“I had writer’s block for so long and as a writer, your self-worth is literally based on the last thing you wrote… I used to think, ‘what happened to me?’” – Amy Winehouse

Amy Winehouse is only a year older than I am… she was found dead, in her apartment, of a suspected overdose today.

27 years old.

I love Amy’s music.  It is raw and sometimes graphic but it is powerful and one can’t help but connect to her creative spirit.

A creative spirit that seemed to find itself in constant turmoil… perpetual brokenness.

I have had more than one conversation, some recent, where I questioned if her talent was birthed from her pain or was the pain birthed from the pressures of stardom.  Questions that I suppose could only truly be answered by those she loved.

Amy Winehouse had a gripping way of blending soul, jazz, rock, and even pop to tell stories you wanted to hear.  My life, and most of ours, is drastically different from the fame, alcohol, drugs, and legal battles that comprised her world.  I remember, just a few months ago, blasting the Back to Black Album in my kitchen while I danced around and prepared a meal for a friend.  When Kyle arrived, one of his first comments was a critique of why I would choose to listen to such graphic music.

My answer: She is real.  It’s not beautiful or desirable but it’s honest.

Her music was fabulous, and entertaining.  It made you want to sing with her and get on your feet.  But it was also sad.  There was a lot of sadness in the kind of honesty that Amy shared in her music.  Of all the things we may not be able to relate too, I think we would be hard-pressed to find someone who hasn’t experienced the sense that their worth was wrapped up in what they have accomplished.

Particularly in Western culture, we are taught that our value as a human being is connected to our success, our talents, and what we have to offer.  The threat in this is that when you feel as though you don’t have anything left to offer you begin to believe there is nothing left in you worth loving.  We were made to be loved.  Our purpose isn’t to succeed but to connect and know we are cherished.

Knowing our true identity can help us avoid the lesser ways we may identify ourselves. We often find our worth in what we think of ourselves or in the opinions of others. We place our identity in things like our appearance, our career or our relationships. But what happens when opinions of us change? What happens when something about us or our circumstances in life change? Our identity is shaken. So why not place our identity in the One who never changes?

If we are to stand on an unshakeable foundation we must know our identity.  We are sons and daughters of Christ and without having to speak a word or make a move we have already been deemed precious in God’s eyes.  To hold onto that truth is to be able to withstand any lies the world may tell us.

Your self-worth is LITERALLY based on the last thing Christ did.

“October Song”

by Amy Winehouse

Today my bird flew away
gone to find her big blue jay
Starlight before she took flight
I sung a lullaby of bird land everynight
I sang a lullaby every night
sang for my Ava every night.

Ava was the morning, now she’s gone
she’s reborn like Sarah Vaughan
In the sanctuary she has found
birds surround her sweet sound
and Ava flies in paradise
and Ava flies in paradise

With dread I woke in my bed
to shooting pains up in my head
Lovebird, my beautiful bird
Spoken ’til one day she couldn’t be heard
She spoke until one day she coudlnt be heard
she just stopped singing

Ava was the morning, now she’s gone
she’s reborn like Sarah Vaughan
In the sanctuary she has found
birds surround her sweet sound
and Ava flies in paradise

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2 thoughts on “The True Worth of Amy Winehouse

  1. Very well written post. Quite thought provoking. It’s nice to read something about Amy Winehouse at the moment that isn’t trying to be sensational gossip.

    • Thank you. I really appreciate the feedback. This post has gotten quite a large number of hits from people who were searching for “Amy Winehouse’s net worth”. I’m hoping that though they came looking for something shallow that they read something unexpected and walked away encouraged.

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